If you miss one drop...

i feel very strange. only two days until i leave to take andre to college and i don't want to go. obviously i'll miss him, but i'd rather stay here and hang out with hattie until it's time for her to go. does that make me a terrible sister? im not sure. either way i feel guilty and sad. i don't want to read but i stupidly procrastinated and missed the PSEO deadline. i SUCK at doing things on time. i really have to work on changing that.
for some reason im still having cramps, even though my period is virtually gone. when i try to relieve them by masturbating, someone ALWAYS interrupts me at exactly the worst possible time so i stall and have to start all over. it's really annoying. when my fucking door is shut just WAIT until i come out! don't knock obnoxiously and yell stuff through it!!!! it happened again today shortly after hattie left. my dad just CAME IN to ask me if i knew where his fucking sodoku book was!! no knock. nothing. i had to jerk my hand away with lightning speed to avoid being totally embarrassed. when i told him to knock next time he got all huffy and sulky and left. whatever.
i watched "Brick" tonight with hattie and it was wonderful! although it was a really good movie, the ideas involved and parts of the scenery made me feel kinda icky. still i want to own it :)
currently i want this:

and this:

i should try to sleep so i don't waste tomorrow. this entry was weird, but i feel better. good night.

i feel very discontent. my mom and brother are fighting. my dad is silent. im stressed over al my last-minute school shit and lack of motivation. i miss hattie and am sad that i probably won't get to hang out with her very much this weekend because i have all this stupid fucking school work to do. i need a job, and i neeeeeeeed to get my temps. my mind is made up.. im going this weekend. ONCE AND FOR ALL. my brother just slammed a door. now my mom is complaining to my dad. this is dumb. i want to go to bed and stay there until school is out. hattie.. there's room for you if you want to join me ^_^

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